for one unimportant reason, i must post something now.. anything.. so i’m thinking now.. i’ll write about my thesis proposal! haha a typical post of UKP’s communication science student working on a thing named KOLOKIUM.

i used to think (and sometimes i still do) that thesis is no big deal. it’s just like any other assignment we get at school or uni, except it’s bigger. big isn’t bad or scary or anything, it’s just an assignment at a larger scale, and most people can get it done, so why worry? i told my boyfriend that when he was doing his thesis.

last semester i started my proposal. i’ve always wanted to write a thesis on something that i actually care about, something i like, something i have passion for. and i was sure then to write about XXI (the second brand for multiplex in Indo, still owned by the 21 group). for whatever reason, i decided not to take take the examination. and that time, it felt like i was at the very bottom of my academic life and thinking about my thesis actually made me feel nauseous (oh how do u spell this??).

so this semester, i have to retake the kolokium class. (some) new classmates, new spirit! i have to work harder this time.. less WhereToLooking, more Kolokium-ing. can’t graduate in 4 years? 4.5 isn’t so bad.. 🙂 but i have to make sure that i get it right, hopefully at once!

and i am so thankful now, that even though i changed my topic, i managed to still find passion in something else! i love my new topic.. DANONE AQUA’s CSR SATU UNTUK SEPULUH.



Hello world.. how r u doin?

Even though we do get more rain these days, but the sun still rises every morning, and that’s a good thing people, something we should be grateful about..

As for me, my days have been cloudy, very cloudy, for the past 2 weeks or so. It’s not always a storm or a heavy rain, but it is never a bright sun-shining day either.. I’ve just been in the cloudy days.. It feels terrible, the kind of feeling that makes u feel like stayin in bed, under ur comfiest blanket so u don’t have to face the world..

And yesterday, I made a decision about my thesis, I’M NOT HANDING IT IN. That means, my 7 semester resolution whateva thing can’t be accomplished. MISSION FAILED, I FAILED.

Not having classes nor assignments for 3 months, I turned my laid-back mode on, and obviously I forgot to switch back to my studying mode. Despite being depressed of this failure and having a great tendency to drown myself, I have to be able to get back up.

This semester wasn’t a great one for my study, so what? I still have the next, my chance to do better, to be myself again and focus. I wanna get rid of the clouds, I wanna see the sun again, my sun, my hope.

Wish u all bright sun-shining days!!